What If God Smoked Cannabis?

Weird Al Yankovich

If God had long hair, and a goatee
And if His eyes were pretty glazed
If He looked spaced out,
Would you buy his story?
Would you believe He had an eye infection?

And yeah, yeah God looks baked
Yeah, yeah God smells good
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

What if God smoked Cannabis?
Hit the bong like some of us
Drove a tie-dyed micro bus
And he subsribes to Rolling Stone

When God made this place
In the begining, did He plant any seeds?
Or did He put them there for Adam and Eve?
So they'd be hungry for the apple that the snake
Was always offering

And yeah, yeah God rolls great
Yeah, yeah God smells good
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

What if God smoked Cannabis?
Do you suppose He'd have a bust?
When He made the platypus
When He created Earth our home
Does He like Pearl Jam or The Stones?
And do you think He rolls His own?
Up there in Heaven on the throne
And when the Saints go marching home
Maybe He sits and smokes a bowl

Christmas Wishlist

A blog wouldn't be complete without a Christmas wishlist.

Says who?!

I told my friend Faye that the only reason why people post their wishlist on the web or in their respective blogs is so other people would know what to give to them for Christmas.

I think it defeats the purpose of sincere gift-giving. I like to be surprised by gifts people give to me.

I don't like the idea of posting a list for other people to buy. I'm the type of person who makes a list because I WANT TO BUY THOSE THINGS FOR MYSELF WITH MY OWN MONEY!

So in the spirit of Christmas. Wait, what I meant was in the spirit of hypocrisy, here's my own wishlist:

THINGS I WANT TO BUY/HAVE FOR MYSELF (not necessarily just for Christmas & in no particular order):

1. A black Hummer 1. (Of course I have to save for this. It'll probably take a lifetime but damnit I will have my Hummer!)
2. 20 pairs of custom-made Jimmy Choos.
3. A lifetime supply of Bread Pan! (Green or Red, I don't care! It's a cheap treat and it tastes yummy! No wonder it's always out-of-stock.)
4. A lifetime supply of Berri's Dark Grape Juice.
5. A lifetime supply of Eng Bee Tin's Hopia & Pork Kikiam. (You can't expect me to go to Binondo all the time just to get them... I still find the place scary!)
6. To be able to drive Michael Schumacher's F1 race car. Even for just a couple of minutes.
7. All the books in the world! Hardbound first editions of course! I've already started collecting them but.....
8. .....I want my own circular library.....
9. .....decorated with rare Gustav Klimt posters & prints.....
10. .....and with a chandelier right smack in the middle of the room made entirely of white & red Murano beads.

I'll keep my list short. Frankly, I forgot what other things I like.

It's Beginning To Look A Lot Like Christmas!

It's the first time in almost 3 years that I'll be spending Christmas here at home. The house looks chaotic because of my mom's business. Boxes of the products that she sells are stocked up in every corner of our house. No room for Christmas decor save for Christmas lights and lanterns lining the fence & gate, and some dotting her plants and trees.

I don't care much for decors but I do miss our Christmas tree.

It doesn't matter. For some weird reason, I feel more Christmas-y than how I felt during the past couple of years.

Maybe it's because I finally had the courage to submit a resignation letter, quit my toxic job, have a normal schedule, sleep better, and see my friends.

Maybe it's because I've made a lot of new friends this year and couldn't be happier with that area of my life.

Maybe it's because we have a new addition to our family.

Maybe it's because bits and pieces in my life are slowly but surely falling into place.

Or maybe it's all of those.

I can't be more grateful for everything that's happened this year. It has been a gruelling year, full of trials, tears, hardwork. But all of those doesn't matter because what's important are the lessons I have learned, the knowledge I have gained & the friends that I met.

I couldn't be happier... I have never been happier.

Affairs To Remember

#1

A married man was having an affair with his secretary.

One day they went her place and made love all afternoon. Exhausted, they fell asleep and woke up at 8 PM ... The man hurriedly dressed and told his lover to take his shoes outside and rub them in the grass and dirt. He put on his shoes and drove home.

"Where have you been?" his wife demanded.

"I can't lie to you," he replied, "I'm having an affair with my secretary. We had sex all afternoon."

"You lying bastard! You've been playing golf!"

#2

A middle-aged couple had two beautiful daughters but always talked about having a son. They decided to try one last time for the son they always wanted. The wife got pregnant and delivered a healthy baby boy. The joyful father rushed to the nursery to see his new son. He was horrified at the ugliest child he had ever seen.

He told his wife, "There's no way I can be the father of this baby. Look at the two beautiful daughters I fathered! Have you been fooling around behind my back?"

The wife smiled sweetly and replied, "Not this time!"

#3

A mortician was working late one night. He examined the body of Mr. Schwartz, about to be cremated, and made a startling discovery. Schwartz had the largest private part he had ever seen!

"I'm sorry Mr. Schwartz," the mortician commented, "I can't allow you to be cremated with such an impressive private part. It must be saved for posterity."

So, he removed it, stuffed it into his briefcase, and took it home.

"I have to show you something you won't believe," he said to his wife, opening his briefcase.

"My God!" the wife exclaimed, "Schwartz is dead?!?!"

#4

A woman was in bed with her lover when she heard her husband opening the front door.

"Hurry," she said, "stand in the corner."

She rubbed baby oil all over him, then dusted him with talcum powder.

"Don't move until I tell you," she said. "Pretend you're a statue."

"What's this?" the husband inquired as he entered the room.

"Oh it's a statue." she replied. "The Smith's bought one and I liked it so much I got one for us, too."

No more was said, not even when they went to bed. Around 2 AM the husband got up, went to the kitchen and returned with a sandwich and a beer.

"Here," he said to the statue, "have this. I stood like that for two days at the Smith's and nobody offered me a damned thing."

#5

A man walked into a cafe, went to the bar and ordered a beer.

"Certainly, Sir, that'll be one cent."

"One Cent?" the man thought.

He glanced at the menu and asked, "How much for a nice juicy steak and a bottle of wine?"

"A nickel," the barman replied.

"A nickel?" exclaimed the man. "Where's the guy who owns this place?"

The bartender replied, "Upstairs, with my wife."

The man asked, "What's he doing upstairs with your wife?"

The bartender replied, "The same thing I'm doing to his business down here."

#6

Jake was dying. His wife sat at the bedside. He looked up and said weakly, "I have something I must confess."

"There's no need to," his wife replied.

"No," he insisted, "I want to die in peace. I slept with your sister, your best friend, her best friend, and your mother!"

"I know, I know," she replied. "Now just rest and let the poison work."

On Astrology & Natal Charts...

Just 4 days until my birthday...

I've decided to research more on Natal charts. I've downloaded this free trial software at AstroWorld. It's a pretty cool Natal Chart generating program. Gives you helpful tips and allows you to understand Astrology a bit more. It's a very specific science. I had to find out the exact time that I was born. Here's what I found out about mine.

- DEMOVERSION -

Your Sun in Virgo

People born under the Earth Sign Virgo tend to place their professional careers first. Virgo is the most realistic sign, which is ruled by the planet Mercury and is constantly in search of knowledge, which can immediately be put into practice. Virgos can differentiate precisely; a simple yes or no is never enough.

Your love of detail allows you to work with care and precision. Disorder and sloppiness only serve to challenge you to straighten up your surroundings. You like your work, enjoy fulfilling obligations and therefore must watch out not to let yourself be used or exploited. You have often placed too much importance on work and have missed the pleasant side of life.

You analyze your surroundings rigorously and are capable of loosing yourself in details to the point where you are not able to put the pieces together to make a whole. Do not forget the importance of recognizing the essentials in life. Do not let yourself get caught up in banalities.

Practice being tolerant and be aware of the danger of taking your views too seriously. You are capable of realizing your visions but have to learn to accept that some people have other ways of doing things.

The sign Virgo represents health. Do not let your many worries exhaust you, this could prove harmful to your health. Basically, worrying is pointless because you will never change the course of events by worrying about them.

The ties between the sign Virgo and the Earth explain why you value material riches and the comfort they bring. You look for quality when you shop and despise cheap mass-produced items.

Even if you are not the most romantic person and pride yourself on your autonomous, single lifestyle, you are hiding a great longing for security. You may want to reconsider your exaggerated demands on a partner.

Women, born under the sign Virgo, dominate relationships and organize the daily routines in the family. You have no reason to feel guilty about it; it just shows that you are prepared to accept responsibility.

Your Sun in the First House

If the Sun is in the first house in your chart, then you entered the world within the first two hours of the new Day. Daylight dispels the black of night and people begin to go about their daily tasks.

The exceptional energy radiating from the Sun in this position is not without effect. This is the source of your destiny to serve as an example and to give others strength and energy. Greet life actively and enthusiastically making your way with determination. Your family was not necessarily the primary contributors to your confidence and optimism. You prefer to earn success completely independently and it has brought you a certain amount of respect, which you also crave for. You are the kind of person who wants to stand out in a crowd. It is important for you to know enough about everything to be considered an authority on any subject. This also satisfies your craving for admiration.

Probably you are seldom sick, although a consultation of the sign housing the Sun and its aspects to the other planets is necessary to confirm this. If the Sun and the Ascendant are in the same sign, the qualities of that sign will be especially pronounced.

If the Sun in the first house receives harmonious aspects, you may have had a childhood which made it easy for you to develop your unique capacities, and your birth caused much excitement.

If the Sun in the first house receives challenging aspects, you should take care not to give free reign to your dominant character traits, such as narcissism, and pride.

If you do not manage to regulate your desire to be in control you will end up frustrated and off-balance. Always remember that respect and recognition have to be earned. Do not make the mistake of expecting too much.

The Moon's Nodes

- The Karmic Component - Where Do I Come From - Where Am I Going?

The Moon's nodes are points where the moon's orbit around the Earth crosses the Earth's orbit around the Sun. The points are calculated and lie directly across from each other. When these two points are connected, the Moon Node Axis crosses the entire chart. It runs backwards, from Aries into Pisces, then into Aquarius, etc.

The Moon Node Axis can travel through the horoscope in 18.5 years, which leaves 1.5 years in each sign. The people our own age have their Moon Nodes in the same sign as we do, but not necessarily in the same house.

The rising Moon Node is referred to as the northern Moon Node or Dragon's Head. The falling Moon Node is called the southern Moon Node or Dragon's Tail. In Indian Astrology they are called Rahu and Ketu.

The meaning of the Moon Node Axis is tied closely to Karmic Astrology and is easier to understand in this context. It begins with a premonition that we are not on planet Earth for the first time, but that we have brought experiences from previous lives with us. In a horoscope the principle of reincarnation is described by the Moon Node Axis, whereby the falling Moon Node shows where the soul is coming from while the rising Moon Node describes where it is going to and our goals in this life. The Axis is the path we walk in this life. It can also be seen as a horoscope compressed into one line, which is expounded on by the remaining factors.

The rising Moon Node contains the sum of all the experiences from our past lives. This is why it seems more familiar to us than its complement. It represents all our favorite habits, which we cannot manage to free ourselves from, but which hamper our development, in other words our personal "way of least resistance". It is our duty to overcome our inner obstacles and pave the way for new experiences that go in a completely different direction, as we see on the opposing sign. We should endeavor to free ourselves from the chains of habit and look forward to unexplored harbors. The houses containing the Moon's Nodes tell us which areas we should further develop and where we are caught by transmitted behavior patterns.

One of the most interesting ways to see the personal horoscope is to look at how far we have come and then image what may lie in store for us.

Your Northern Moon Node in Virgo

This Moon Node position challenges you to make clear, rational decisions taking leave of your emotional martyrdom. You are held captive by illusions and allow yourself to be caught up in tragic tales. You cannot express your position in front of others because you are very seldom capable of recognizing what your positions actually are. These veils of uncontrolled emotionality often lead to exploitation, leaving you unable to defend yourself. Resolution and ambition were alien concepts. Having closed your eyes to reality, you could not understand the cause of your suffering. Your being was unattainable and your self-pity only added to your isolation. Lack of self-confidence and your willingness to allow emotions to control your ideas inhibited your development.

You are going to have to find a way out of this behavior pattern. You cannot run from the truth, even if it is not always pleasant. Do not let yourself be swayed by other people's moods. Practice saying no to yourself and to those asking for favors. You have to learn to think critically and to define your goals clearly if you ever want to reach them. Analyze the situation in order to differentiate between pity and sympathy. If you want to help then go to a hospital or similar institution and offer concrete help to people who really need it.

Your Northern Moon Node in the First House

With a rising moon node in the first house, you should start searching for your identity and your personal strengths. Do not fall into the old habit of relying on approval from your partner, but encourage your own strengths. Exercising solidarity in the realization of your goals is not the point. Rather, you are asked to achieve independence through a confident appearance and to live according to your needs. Even if you still put yourself under pressure to become one with your partner, take the initiative and accept the challenge of self-fulfillment. If you should want to have another relationship, you will be able to contribute more without running the risk of being used.

The Part of Fortune

- Your Personal Key for True Contentedness -

Everyone asks themselves once in a while what they can do to be happy and finding an answer to this question is not as easy as it may seem, because many people have wrong impressions about their real needs. They might be convinced that they need something, are oriented on inappropriate role models or let themselves be influenced by other people's ideas while possibly they are already on the wrong path. Usually they are not aware of it until it is too late. If you know how to make someone really happy, usually you are prepared to make an effort or to make difficult decisions. This makes the Part of Fortune something like a personal code of ethics, which has to be remembered in every circumstance. It is one of the sensitive points and is derived from Arabic Astrology.

The Part of Fortune is calculated by subtracting the Sun position from the Ascendant position. We add the number of degrees of the moon to this result. A simple formula would look like the following:Part of Fortune = Ascendant - Sun + Moon

Your Part of Fortune in Sagittarius

Probably you are naturally content without being aware of its value. It is part of your personality to believe in the future and in the good in people and this attitude will be rewarded. Positive thinking will give you strength to take life easy without becoming superficial. Feeling unstrained may be one prerequisite for your happiness. Freedom is something precious that you could never give up. When you obligate yourself then it is voluntary and with consciousness.
There is a lot of natural self-confidence in you and it is enough for you to enjoy life, discovering some meaning beyond this is not a priority for you. Telling the truth and acting on it, being authentic is more important to you; you would not be able to live with yourself if you did otherwise. Another quality that you appreciate is your spontaneity. Anyone who tries to keep you from going on adventures or letting your enthusiasm show will not be your friend for very long. Otherwise, you do your best to get along with everyone, which contributes to your popularity as well as your general happiness.

Your Part of Fortune in the Fourth House

The most basic human need is to feel that we make a difference, which is why people feel good when they are doing everything they can to contribute to the well being of people they feel close to or care for animals or even plants. It is also satisfying to observe the development of relationships, to see a child growing and watch trust evolve. With an attitude toward life so strongly oriented on giving, it is sometimes difficult for you to take; at the very least you want to show your appreciation immediately. Probably you have an emotional conscience. Recognition of the responsibility you take on for the well being of others comes very naturally from within you and determines much of your behavior. Seen this way, once you have found your fortune you will not take anything at the cost of others.

In the near future you may not have an easy time finding your way in the world, where social order does not always allow for the expression of deep emotions; also disappointments may arise when your good nature is abused or if you are deprived of recognition. That does not necessarily have to change your broad-minded attitude or prevent you from doing what you want to do. Naturally, you should set goals for yourself, but choose goals that you can relate to spiritually. If you act contrary to your feelings, your plans will never be realized. Try to establish closeness with all of your endeavors such that it leads to a personal identification. Soon you will recognize that this is what you need to be happy.

Family plays a very important role for you, especially your mother. Probably it is not easy for you to judge the situation objectively, but the feeling of belonging to your family can give you the kind of security other people search for their whole lives. This can be summarized by saying that you find fulfillment in the opportunity to express your feelings without having to abide by strict rules. Take care that you stay in contact with nature because you value your relationship to nature highly.

The Ascendant

- Gate to the External World -

The Ascendant is the rising sign in the East at the time of birth. It metaphorically channels our expectations of life. The first impression stays with us throughout the day, influencing each contact and every event. The Ascendant channels all the other energies in the chart actively working to express them. It describes the way we live our natal chart and how we confront our environment, making up an important part of our identity.

As to the question of the differentiation between the Ascendant and the role of the Sun keep in mind how difficult it is for us as well as for others to differentiate the expression of our personality from our personality itself. This question can therefore only be partially resolved. It is much more important to live the positive aspects of your sign and to bring it into harmony with all the other energies and influences.

Your Ascendant in Leo

You radiate energy like the Sun and attract people with your creativity, optimism and leadership capabilities. You are often more successful than others, who have trouble getting off the sidelines. You have no problem doing just that, you love being the center of attention and need to rant about on center stage. With your charisma, you will not be overlooked.

Do not deceive yourself: Your behavior holds traps for you; your inclination is to be overconfident and not notice how ridiculous your power struggles are. If you want to achieve the greatness of which you are capable, then you will have to learn to use your extraordinary talents responsibly. That will prevent you from acquiring a false pride, seeing the world as a stage and defying reality to bask in narcissism. It would be a shame if you waste your energy only to draw the envy of your "subjects".

On traveling...

Travel only with equals or thy betters.
If none, travel alone.
--The Dhammapada

New Orleans

If I were to choose a place in the United States where I can spend a couple of weeks, it'll definitely be New Orleans.

I've always wanted to go there. Even after Katrina, I still want to go there. Not for Mardi Gras, not because of Anne Rice, but because the place is magical, mystical, enchanted.

I want to spend an afternoon or two in the French Quarters, maybe tour the cemeteries, visit the restaurants for gastronomic feast.

Imagine having an encounter with a voodoo priestess or being freaked out by a ghost tapping you on your shoulder while you're sitting down, staring at the moon.

Imagine being transported back in time while listening to one of the many great New Orleans jazz bands.

New Orleans, I think, will give me every bit of experience one can think of when traveling. Culture, entertainment, architecture, food, religion, spirituality, and the people... living or not.

Someday... soon... I will visit. I will make New Orleans mine, for such a place, no matter how long or short the stay is, will forever be in my head and in my heart.

Under the sea...

Photos taken at Aquaria KLCC

Ex-Factor

Lauryn Hill

It could all be so simple
but you'd rather make it hard
loving you is like a battle
and we both end up with scars
tell me, who i have to be
to get some reciprocity
see, no one loves you more than me
and no one ever will
is this just a silly game
that forces you to act this way
forces you to scream my name
then pretend that you can't stay
tell me, who i have to be
to get some reciprocity
See no one loves you more than me
and no one ever will.
No matter how i think we grow
you always seem to let me know
it ain't workin'
it ain't workin' (No, it ain't workin)
and when i try to walk away
you hurt yourself to make me stay
this is crazy (this is crazy)
oh this is crazy (this is crazy)
i keep letting you back in
how can i explain myself
as painful as this thing has been
i just can't be with no one else
see i know what we've got to do
you let go and i'll let go too
cause no one's hurt me more than you
and no one ever will
No matter how I think we grow
you always seem to let me know
it ain't workin' (it ain't workin)
it ain't workin'
And when i try to walk away
you hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy (This is crazy)
Oh this is crazy (this is crazy)
care for me, care for me (care)
i know you care for me
there for me there for me (there)
said you'd be there for me
cry for me cry for me (cry)
you said you'd die for me
give to me give to me (give)
why won't you live for me.
care for me, care for me (care)
you said you care for me
there for me there for me (there)
said you'd be there for me
cry for me cry for me (cry)
you said you'd die for me
give to me give to me (give)
why won't you live for me.
care for me, care for me (care)
you said you care for me
there for me there for me (there)
said you'd be there for me
cry for me cry for me (cry)
you said you'd die for me
give to me give to me (give)
why won't you live for me.
care for me, care for me (care)
you said you care for me
there for me there for me (there)
said you'd be there for me
give to me give to me (cry)
why don't you live for me.
cry for me cry for me (give)
you said you'd die for me
Where were you, when I needed you?

Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now...

The Smiths

I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?
Two lovers entwined pass me by
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
I was looking for a job, and then I found a job
And heaven knows I'm miserable now
In my life
Oh, why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?
What she asked of me at the end of the day
Caligula would have blushed
"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled
In my life
Why do I smile
At people who I'd much rather kick in the eye ?
I was happy in the haze of a drunken hour
But heaven knows I'm miserable now
"You've been in the house too long" she said
And I (naturally) fled
In my life
Why do I give valuable time
To people who don't care if I live or die ?

Dirty Harry

Gorillaz

I need a gun to keep myself from harm
The poor people are burning in the sun
But they ain't got a chance
They ain't got a chance
I need a gun
Cos all I do is dance
Cos all I do is dance
I need a gun to keep myself from harm
The poor people are burning in the sun
No, they ain't got a chance
They ain't got a chance
I need a gun
Cos all I do is dance
Cos all I do is dance
In my backpack
I got my act right
In case you act quite difficult
And yo is so weakin'
With anger and discontent
Some are seeking and searching like me, moi
I'm a peace-loving decoy
Ready for retaliation
I change the whole occasion to a pine box six-under
Impulsive don't ask wild wonder
Orders given to me is:
strike and I'm thunder with lightning fast reflexes on constant alert
from the constant hurt that seems limitless with no dropping pressure
Seems like everybody's out to test ya
'til they see your brake
They can't conceal the hate
That consumes you
I'm the reason why you flipped your soosa
Chill with your old lady at the tilt
I got a 90 days digit
And I'm filled with guilt
From things that I've seen
Your water's from a bottle
mine's from a canteen
At night I hear the shots
Ring so I'm a light sleeper
The cost of life,
it seems to get cheaper
out in the desert
with my street sweeper
The war is over
So said the speaker with the flight suit on
Maybe to him I'm just a pawn
So he can advance
Remember when I used to dance
Man, all I want to do is dance
(Dance!)
(Dance!)
(Dance!)
I need a gun to keep myself from harm

Women & Packing Light: Mission Impossible!

You know what I hate about traveling?

Packing!

I wish I can pack the way men pack. I always have this picture in my mind of them just grabbing a couple of shirts, underwear, a pair or two of pants, and some toiletries, throw them inside a bag or a small suitcase, wallet in pocket, and leave.

Men have it so easy.

Women and packing..... Now that's a completely different story.

I'm going out of the country this weekend, for two weeks, and I've just finished packing..... I think. Looking at the contents of my suitcase, I'm pretty much convinced I have everything I need or want to bring. A tiny voice in me is telling me I've gone overboard.

Looking at my suitcase, it seems like I'm going to be gone for a month instead of just two weeks. My mom always tells me to make a list of only the essentials. I always do! But all of my things are essential to me, and because of that reason, it has always been a problem for me to keep whatever I bring with me within the 20 kilo limit airlines allow for each passenger.

I was planning on bringing at least 3 pairs of shoes but I had to let go of my beloved espadrilles. I suppose the sneakers that I'll be wearing, a slip-on, a kitten-heeled mule, and my bedroom slippers would do.

This morning I've dumped all of the clothes I wanted to bring with me, onto my bed. It pretty much looked like a disaster area. I narrowed everything down to a couple of black tees & white tees, 3 black blouses, a white blouse, a red shirt, 3 packs of underwear, 5 pairs of socks, 2 pairs of slacks, 2 pairs of jeans, and a couple of bras. That should do it..... Oh wait..... I almost forgot my bathrobe!

I was also planning on bringing a couple of books with me but I've decided to bring just one. I don't think I'll be cooped up indoors most of the time anyway. It's a big city and most of the two weeks will be spent exploring. Besides, I also have some writing to do.

Of course I have to bring my own toiletries. Can't leave home without my favorite scents, body cream, a loofa scrub, shower gel, sunblock, make-up, etcetera, etcetera. I can always buy the shampoo & conditioner over there. But what if they don't have the brand I use? I just have to make do I guess.

Now, if I bring two kinds of purses, will that be too much? If I bring some jewelry and accessories, will it also be too much? I can't leave home without my pearls, bracelets, earrings. What if I have to accessorize? Better bring some.....

There..... that should do it! At last I'm done. Oh wait..... The pasalubongs! Better make room for them, too.

Now let's see how much this'll weigh.....

Damn!!!!! 7 kilos of excess baggage. Time to rethink and strategize. Seriously, airlines should allow more for free baggage. Don't they know this is torture to women? Or maybe I should learn how to pack light...

Fuck it..... I'll just pay for the excess.

Live BELOW Your Means.....

I don't know how to start.

All I can say is when you don't have money to pay for rent, don't even think of getting your own place. Save for the future and hope to save enough to invest on your own property or condo or house. There's no point in working your butt off to be able to pay a rent you can barely afford just so you can boast to others that you've broken free from your folks.

I'd rather live with my parents, get my own room, my bank account intact, my wallet fat with cash, able to buy things I want, go out & spend when I want to, than to have my own place dying with hunger, not knowing where the hell to get money for the damn rent, utilities, and building dues.

Shop for necessities ONLY! Yeah, yeah..... Girls were born to shop. But seriously, how many shoes, strands of FAKE pearls, handbags, all kinds of bags, make up, bottles of perfume, does one need in a lifetime? Certainly not that much.

I guess other people would rather look good (even if in reality, they look like a walking overly-trimmed christmas tree), than have a disposable income, or food on their tables.

I say invest on key pieces. Classic styles, quality shoes, bags, and REAL jewelry that'll last you longer than the current clothing or accessory trends. How long are you going to wear that generic-looking antiqued dangling earring anyway? Don't your ears hurt? Doesn't your neck get itchy because of all those 'trendy' fake necklaces you wear?

Yes, you can treat yourself OCCASIONALLY to luxuries but only if you absolutely deserve a treat.

Stop buying coffee at Starbucks! Seriously, what's the difference between the coffee in the office pantry and the coffee you buy outside? They taste the same to me! You think hanging out and being seen in Starbucks will make you look trendy and sophisticated? Take another look! You're just like everyone else! Generic, boring, and hooked up on overpriced caffeine.

In case you didn't know, caffeine is bad for you. Just like your nicotine addiction which also makes you stink.

Why do you need braces? Nothing's wrong with your teeth. They look perfectly fine. Then again, I'm not an orthodontist.

Did you know that contraption in your mouth doesn't make you look cool? It's a corrective device! Like wearing back braces or leg braces to correct whatever's crooked in your body. So why fix it when it isn't crooked? You want crooked teeth to go with those braces? Come on over, I'll punch you.... It'll give you good reason to visit an orthodontist and spend good money on braces and whatever dental surgery needed after I'm done bashing your face.

As much as possible, pay with cash. A credit card should only be used for emergencies! Owning a credit card doesn't make you seem rich. It makes you look like you don't have money to pay for that coffee you're buying or that faux leather bag you've been eyeing for months. Besides, the interest itself is ridiculously high, in case you haven't been reading your statements, that alone should stop you from using them plastics!

Oh, one last thing. Stop acting like you're born with a silver spoon in your mouth. It's not amusing. You're making a complete fool out of yourself, it makes people want to stick a big wooden spoon from Baguio up your flat butt.

So again, live below your means, or you'll die a sad, sorry miser.

Dyslexic Heart

Paul Westerberg

You're shooting glances and they're so hard to read
I misconstrue what you mean
Slip me a napkin, and now that's a start
Is this your name or a doctor's eye chart?

I try to comprehend you, I got a dyslexic heart.
I ain't dying to offend you, I got a dyslexic heart.

Thanks for the book, now my table is steady
It's a library or a bar
Between the covers I judge you as ready
Half-angel, half-tart

I try to comprehend you, I got a dyslexic heart.
I ain't dying to offend you, I got a dyslexic heart.

Do I read you correctly? You need me directly
Help me with this part
Do I date you do I hate you do I got a dyslexic heart?

You keep swayin'
What are you sayin'?
Think about stayin'
Are you just playin', making passes
Well my heart could use some glasses....

Are you stayin'?
What are you savin'?
Or are you swayin'?
Just playing, making passes
Well my heart could use some glasses...

I try to comprehend you, I got a dyslexic heart
Do I read you correctly? I need you directly.
Help me with this part.
Do I love you do I hate you, I got a dyslexic heart

First Car Blues.....

Sheesh..... I never realized owning a car is like taking care of a baby! Maintenance and accessories aren't cheap! Huhuhuhu!

Dancing In The Dark

Bruce Springsteen

I get up in the evening
And I ain't got nothing to say
I come home in the morning
I go to bed feeling the same way
I ain't nothing but tired
Man I´m just tired and bored with myself
Hey there baby I could use just a little help
-Chorus-
You can't start a fire
You can't start a fire without a spark
This gun's for hire
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
Message keeps getting clearer
Radio's on and I'm moving 'round the place
I check my look in the mirror
I wanna change my clothes, my hair, my face
Man I ain't getting nowhere just living
In a dump like this
There's something happening somewhere
Baby I just know that there is
-Chorus-
You sit around getting older
There's a joke here somewhere and it's on me
I'll shake this world off my shoulder
Come on baby the laugh's on me
Stay on the streets of this town
And they'll be carving you up all right
They say you gotta stay hungry
Hey baby I'm just about starving tonight
I'm dying for some action
I'm sick of sitting 'round here trying to write
This book
I need a love reaction
Come on now baby gimme just one look
You can't start a fire sitting 'round crying
Over a broken heart
This gun's for hire
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
You can't start a fire worrying about
Your little world falling apart
This gun's for hire
Even if we're just dancing in the dark
Even if we're just dancing in the dark...

Fun For Me

Portishead & Moloko

I dreamt that I was dreaming
I was wired to a clock
Tickled by the minute hand
Tick tock tick tick tock
I dream I'm on a train
And it is making music
I don't remember getting on
Clickity click clickity click
I dreamt that I was very tall
I was bigger than king kong
I heard the bells the bells
Are ringing a ding dong a ding dong
I dream that I am sitting
In the devil's company
He gave a solemn promise
Fe fi fo fun for me
I dreamt that I was chasing
The monster out of me
I caught him in the corner
Ha ha hee hee hee hee
I dream I'm in a tunnel
Between here and now
Scooby doobie
Where would you be?
Bow wow wow wow
I dream I'm at a crossroads
No place left to go
I look in each direction
Eenie meanie miny mo
I dream that I am spying
It's you i'm looking at
There's a knocking at the window
A rin tin tin tin a rin tin tin
I dream I am an ostrich
Head deep in the sand
There is a rhythm that's a playing
Fantastic elastic band
I dreamt that the bogeyman went down on Mr. Spock
Sugar was a flowing
Sock it to 'em sock
I dreamt I saw a moo cow
Jump across the moon
Just a flight of fantasy
zoom zoom zoom
I dreamt I met a spaceman
He took me to his ship
You know he cut my hair off
Snip snip snip
I dreamt that I was sleeping
Asleep for heaven's sake
The dream that I was dreaming
It caused me to awake
fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
I dreamt I was way up I was standing on the top
With the feeling I was falling
bop beep bop
I dreamt that I was jumping in a circus through a hoop
Someone shut the lights off
shoo-be-doop
I dreamt that I was fast
I was never shutting up
I was going in a hurry
I was giddy-up giddy-up
I dream I'm in the park
I'm standing in the nudey
I'm getting what I wanted
tootie fruity tootie fruity
Fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
Fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
I dreamt that I was dreaming I was wired to a clock
Tickled by the minute hand
Tock tick tock
I dream I'm on a train
And it is making music
I don't remember getting on
Clickity click
I dreamt that I was very tall bigger than king kong
I heard the bells are ringing
a ring ding dong
I dream I am an ostrich deep in the sand
Rhythm that's a playing elastic band
Elastic band
Elastic band
Fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
Fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
Fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
Fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
Fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
Fe fi fo fun for me fun for me
Fe fi fo fun for me fun for me

The Princessa

From Harriet Rubin's The Princessa, Machiavelli For Women.

1. A Princessa discovers her true strength by knowing her enemy.

2. They live their lives as people for whom triumph is a birthright.

3. From their earliest days, they mark themselves as different from others.

4. They are loners. Even with their families, they consider themselves aliens, and they recognize this as power. It doesn't embarass them, it inspires them.

5. Married or not, Princessas stand apart. Contemporary psychology praises the value of women's "connections" and relationships but the powerful women of history coveted the power of separateness. It gave them the opportunity for more than self-confidence: "self-love," which poet Walt Whitman described in his phrase "I inhabit my soul," was a feeling they understood.

6. Like children and great wild cats, Freud said, powerful women seem self-contained, mysterious, and this accounts for the fascination they exert on others.

7. Are such women born extraordinary? Or do they become extraordinary because they set themselves apart, in a psychological atmosphere where they are measured against no one's standards but their own?

8. They never consider themselves brave. Princessas feel they are doing no more than what can be done. They may know they are smart, even unique. But they don't call themselves brave. Diane Fosey, the primatologist, said heights had always made her scream, "like a baptized baby." But once she got into the jungles of Africa, she climbed ravines with the gorillas of the mist she avidly studied. These warriors relax in the face of danger the way other women relax in front of their TVs. In a tough situatioin, they behave as if they've already won, because they don't believe they can lose. They go into battle with a winner's calm. The poet Rainer Maria Rilke said, "Follow your fear." That is what heroic women do. Their greatest power comes in ridding themselves of the very thing that shamed them and making this old fear their source of pride.

9. They treat destiny as their mentor.

10. Pushed to a boiling point, princessas don't get outraged; they get outrageous!

11. Desire is the key; it reframes reality. Princessas express their desire with a diva's virtuosity. They don't hold back. They don't doubt their desire; they feel entitled to their wishes, and they use the potency of them. It is said that women are like teabags; it's only when they're in hot water that you realize how strong they are. In hot water, women's desire boils.

12. A woman who recognizes public love regards nothing and no one as firmly opposed to her. Every enemy is a potential ally. She gets close to her enemy as much as she would to a belovd. She is keen to strenghten the enemy, not weaken him or her. She uses truth as a weapon when even Sun Tzu or Stonewall Jackson advises one to "mislead, mystify, and disguise."

Phoenix-like...

I watched Xmen 3. It's fuckin' depressing! Want to be like Phoenix though..... Sans the schizoprenia...

Soul Patrol

I am so glad and quite relieved that Taylor Hicks won this year's American Idol competition. It's one of my guilty pleasures and I've been watching it since the season began just because of him. He's different. He's got soul. I knew he was going to win from the moment I saw him during the audition. He's the kind of guy who just loves to sing! I don't even think he thought he'd make it as far as the Kodak theatre. He was just there to sing and have a good time. He didn't care what he looked like (although he did improve throughout the season), didn't care what song he sang, he made the stage his own and when he sings, people really listen.

For a moment there I thought they were going to choose Katherine McPhee. If that was what happened, then she would just be like Kelly, Carrie, Fantasia. Girls who can sing but do not have personalities at all. Although she has some edge over the others. She sure is a looker.

But looks can only get you so far..... Not that far though.....

America finally chose wisely. Sure hope they'd chose wisely when voting for presidents and politicians. Hehehe!

Painting a picture...

A while ago I was walking up the stairs, tired, weary, ready to just collapse. I looked up, not quite there yet, I saw a soft amber glow on the wall. I was drawn to it. Heavy steps became hurried steps, wanting to know where the source is. I realized it was a beam of sunlight from outside the window facing the wall. I walked towards the window, enchanted by a display of purple hues with some touches of orange and blues. It was a wonderful sight to behold. It's been a while since I've looked up the sky & wathced the horizon as the sun sets.

Tonight... for the first time in years... I've painted sunset... just as it should be.

Wala Lang.....

Have neglected my blog. Stupid work (nah not really), stupid everything.....

May I just say I think it's stupid how the Catholic Church is trying to ban the Da Vinci Code from being shown in movie houses. Don't they realize the more they try to ban it the more they tweak people's curiosity? It's like placing a huge WET PAINT DO NOT TOUCH sign on a wall.

Fascinations, Part 1

From now on, I'm going o be writing about things that fascinate me...

SUPERNATURAL, PARANORMAL, & THE OCCULT

I've always been fascinated with ghosts, ghost stories, scary movies, haunted houses, witches, vampires, you name it. I remember watching those crappy horror movies back in the 80's when I was a kid. Scared shitless but loving it. I also remember wanting to become a vampire back when I started reading Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles. I also am fascinated with death.

I don't have a clue why I'm fascinated though. My friends find it morbid. Maybe it's more of me wanting to discover more of what's unknown. I'm a logical person and I guess it's me wanting to find logic where logic doesn't exist(?).

I guess it also has something to do with personal experiences like me being able to see spirits, ghosts, entities. Yes..... I'm one of those people who can see. I don't claim to have esp or to be a clairvoyant. I just can. That's it.

I remember watching tv and seeing little things running around the floor playing peekaboo with each other.

I remember seeing a kid sitting on top of the stairs at our old house, crying and thinking. Mind you, there are no kids in the house. Just me, my parents, my sister (who was I think 14 back then), and my great aunt.

I remember being attacked by an entity in my room and had scratches the next day to prove I wasn't having a nightmare or was hallucinating.

I remember hearing my name being called when there's no one around me.

I can go on and on about all of the experiences I've had but..... nevermind.

I was scared out of my wits at first. I thought I was going crazy. My parents always told me I have a hyperactive imagination. Once I've gotten over my fear, I found it kind of cool, although not that amusing.

I have a psychic friend who taught me how to meditate and control. He also taught me how to read people. When I say read people, I mean read how they think, what they're thinking, how they are as a person.

I've been researching on clairvoyance, meditation, the occult, paranormal for quite some time now. Whenever I read whatever material I can find, especially on the internet, it makes a skeptic out of me more than a believer.

My psychic friend told me to research on Franz Bardon and his methods. So far, it's been interesting, albeit being a bit cerebral even for me (Bardon's methods). Once I finish up on what I'm reading, and as soon as I find more time, I'm gonna go ahead and write more about this fascination which I think will never go away.

More Than A Feeling

Boston

I looked out this morning and the sun was gone
Turned on some music to start my day
I lost myself in a familiar song
I closed my eyes and I slipped away
It's more than a feeling, when I hear that old song they used to
play (more than a feeling)
I begin dreaming (more than a feeling)
'till I see Marianne walk away
I see my Marianne walkin' away
So many people have come and gone
Their faces fade as the years go by
Yet I still recall as I wander on
as clear as the sun in the summer sky
It's more than a feeling, when I hear that old song they used to
play (more than a feeling)
I begin dreaming (more than a feeling)
'till I see Marianne walk away
I see my Marianne walkin' away
When I'm tired and thinking cold
I hide in my music, forget the day
and dream of a girl I used to know
I closed my eyes and she slipped away
She slipped away. She slipped away
It's more than a feeling, when I hear that old song they used to
play (more than a feeling)
I begin dreaming (more than a feeling)
'till I see Marianne walk away

Incompetencies Part 1

I swear to God! Traffic cops are the most incompetent creatures to walk the face of the earth! I just got back from a visit to my doc friend's clinic in Ortigas and I got apprehended from parking in a PARKING ZONE!!!!! The thing is, I have absolutely no idea what his reason was. When I confronted the stupid bastard all I can understand was "ma'am..... blah blah blah blah blah..... bawal..... blah blah blah blah blah..... lisensya....." I asked him why I can't park in a frikkin parking zone and he can't even give me a straight answer!

How I wish this country was technologically advanced as Japan and have money to spare like First World countries to fund a research and development team so we can replace these incompetent creatures with robots and computers! Am mortified to see how they spend and use the taxes I pay.

Taking it one step further...

Isn't it so true? I mean, am I making a bit of sense or am I getting crazy again?

Most men get spent with blowjobs alone, not even the entire sexual act. Besides, once women start ruling the world, we'd hardly have time to fuck. Plus, sex sort of complicates things. Men can get whiney too, you know... not just women.

Of course I'm talking about men, in general. I know for some men, blowjobs aren't enough, but those men are rare.

One of my friends said gladiators have sex slaves to keep them happy. I said them gladiators were gay. Hahaha! Most Romans were gay. Besides, I wouldn't compare gladiators to soldiers or warriors. I'd most likely compare them to wrestlers today. They were there for the emperor's entertainment and amusement. They fight amongst themselves, and against animals. The theory that blowjobs can stop war apply to real soldiers, men who go to war, and men in general, I guess (assuming all men are single-track minded).

Remember the movie Troy? The first scene, Achilles was late for battle because he was in bed with two(?) women. Yeah, you can say he's always late because of contempt for the king. So what? That day he was late because of sex. Imagine if that happened to both side's battalion?

Some would say men masturbate all the time, that's their form of release. Well..... A blowjob is way better than a handjob right? Ask Mr. Clinton! Hehe! Besides, even a retard won't pass up a blowjob, whether it be good or bad. Which brings us to another discussion, "Is there such a thing as a bad blow job?" Not now though.....

Blowjobs: The Answer To World Peace

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Take The Color Quiz!

http://www.colorquiz.com

My results:

YOUR EXISTING SITUATION:
Active, outgoing, and restless. Feels frustrated by the slowness with which events develop along the desired lines. This leads to irritability, changeability, and lack of persistence when pursuing a given objective.

YOUR STRESS SOURCES:
Resilience and tenacity have become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.

YOUR RESTRAINED CHARACTERISTICS:
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense. Able to achieve satisfaction through sexual activity but tends to hold aloof emotionally.

YOUR DESIRED OBJECTIVES:
Suffering from the effects of those things which are being rejected as disagreeable, and is strongly resisting them. Just wants to be left in peace.

YOUR ACTUAL PROBLEMS:
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. Her inability to enforce her will causes her to over-react in stubborn defiance and by assigning to others all the blame for her own failures.The fear that she might be prevented from achieving the things she wants drives her to the exploitation of all types of experience, so that she may categorically deny that any of them has any value. This destructive denigration becomes her method of concealing hopelessness and a profound sense of futility.

Nelson Mandela's 1994 Inaugural Speech

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.

Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.

We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous?" Actually, who are you not to be?... Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same.

Machiavelli For Women

From Harriet Rubin's The Princessa, Machiavelli For Women.

1. A Princessa discovers her true strength by knowing her enemy.

2. They live their lives as people for whom triumph is a birthright.

3. From their earliest days, they mark themselves as different from others.

4. They are loners. Even with their families, they consider themselves aliens, and they recognize this as power. It doesn't embarass them, it inspires them.

5. Married or not, Princessas stand apart. Contemporary psychology praises the value of women's "connections" and relationships but the powerful women of history coveted the power of separateness. It gave them the opportunity for more than self-confidence: "self-love," which poet Walt Whitman described in his phrase "I inhabit my soul," was a feeling they understood.

6. Like children and great wild cats, Freud said, powerful women seem self-contained, mysterious, and this accounts for the fascination they exert on others.

7. Are such women born extraordinary? Or do they become extraordinary because they set themselves apart, in a psychological atmosphere where they are measured against no one's standards but their own?

8. They never consider themselves brave. Princessas feel they are doing no more than what can be done. They may know they are smart, even unique. But they don't call themselves brave. Diane Fosey, the primatologist, said heights had always made her scream, "like a baptized baby." But once she got into the jungles of Africa, she climbed ravines with the gorillas of the mist she avidly studied. These warriors relax in the face of danger the way other women relax in front of their TVs. In a tough situatioin, they behave as if they've already won, because they don't believe they can lose. They go into battle with a winner's calm. The poet Rainer Maria Rilke said, "Follow your fear." That is what heroic women do. Their greatest power comes in ridding themselves of the very thing that shamed them and making this old fear their source of pride.

9. They treat destiny as their mentor.

10. Pushed to a boiling point, princessas don't get outraged; they get outrageous!

11. Desire is the key; it reframes reality. Princessas express their desire with a diva's virtuosity. They don't hold back. They don't doubt their desire; they feel entitled to their wishes, and they use the potency of them. It is said that women are like teabags; it's only when they're in hot water that you realize how strong they are. In hot water, women's desire boils.

12. A woman who recognizes public love regards nothing and no one as firmly opposed to her. Every enemy is a potential ally. She gets close to her enemy as much as she would to a belovd. She is keen to strenghten the enemy, not weaken him or her. She uses truth as a weapon when even Sun Tzu or Stonewall Jackson advises one to "mislead, mystify, and disguise."

I Carry Your Heart With Me

E.E. Cummings

I carry your heart with me

(I carry it in my heart)

I am never without it

(Anywhere I go you go, my dear;

and whatever is done by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear no fate

(For you are my fate, my sweet)

I want no world

(For beautiful you are my world, my true)

And it's you are whatever a moon has always meant

And whatever a sun will always sing is you
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

And the sky of the sky of a tree called life;

Which grows higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)

And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart(I carry it in my heart)

The First Cut Is The Deepest

Sheryl Crow

I would've given you all of my heart

But there's someone who's torn it apart

And he's taken just all that I had

But if you want I'll try to love again

Baby I'll try to love again but I know

The first cut is the deepest baby I know

The first cut is the deepest

But when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed

And when it comes to lovin me, he's worst

I still want you by my side

Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried

And I'm sure gonna give you a try

Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try)

Baby I'll try to love again but I know (o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest

Baby I knowthe first cut is the deepest

But when it comes to bein' lucky he's cursed

And when it comes to lovin' me, he's worst

(Guitar solo)

I still want you by my side

Just to help me dry the tears that I've cried

But I'm sure gonna give you a try

Cause if you want I'll try to love again (try to love again)

Baby I'll try to love again but I know (o-o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest

Baby I know the first cut is the deepest

But when it comes to bein lucky he's cursed

And when it comes to lovin me he's worst (o-o-oh)

The first cut is the deepest baby I know

The first cut is the deepest

Try to love again

Random Thoughts & Unsent Letters...

You asked me what I see in you..... I never gave you an answer. Contrary to your claim as being a simple man, you are far more complex. I see many things in you. Like what you see in me, I see part of myself in you, too. We are different in a lot of ways, and yet so alike in many other ways. I guess we're like yin & yang... Complimenting each other's ways effortlessly. I see in you a goodness that you are unaware of. I'm sorry to disappoint you, but you are not bad & perverted as how you think you are. I see a kind, generous, caring man that not a lot of people get to see. I've had the privilege of geting to know you sans the masks you wear. I like the person beneath all those masks the most. That is what drew me most to you...

New Year Blues.....

Happy New Year, I guess.....

Feeling a bit depressed though.

Don't know why.....